For awhile, I am intrigued with the teachings of Raja Yoga. “The main object of this form of yoga is to balance the energy throughout the brain and body so that the mind becomes very calm,” the very sexy and young Guru says.
We meditate on the kind of life we want to have in our next life. I imagine living on a beach with him.
Later, I will think that this karma planning is no different that buying a lottery ticket. You don’t have to win in order to enjoy the fantasy.
These days I want to believe that my particular life on Earth is but one of several journeys I will take. Earth but one stop among many; one of many experiences. And maybe I will get to choose to live another experience at another time in another space. My niece Debbie asks me if I believe in God. “I don’t believe but I hope there is something else,” I say.
The Aboriginals living in northern Quebec believe that the spirit of the dead lingers on for a while; then they are absent as if they are busy doing something. Getting passports, maybe, or tattooed or having identity chips installed into brand new supersonic bodies or maybe painting dream billboards. Who knows? Then, the great tribal leaders say that the dead come back and we can feel their presence once more.
When she first died last September, I strongly felt my sister’s presence for two or three months.
Then she was gone as if the connection between us had jammed. I found her absence unsettling for it put into question my spiritual beliefs about the afterlife.
Maybe after all, there was nothing but a memory that becomes foggier and foggier as time goes on.